Tuesday, August 18, 2009

I've been awarded.

I've been awarded by Lemmy Caution at Alphaville. Thank you so much.
Now all I have to do is tell you 10 honest things about me.
1. I've worn glasses since I was in 3rd grade. Tried the contacts but they just irritated me. Also found I get taken more seriously when I do wear them.
2. I haven't seen my natural hair color since I was 15.
3. I'm one of those gals who is too lazy to take off her makeup before she goes to sleep.
4. I am always in need of a vacation.
5. I haven't had a cavity since high school.
6. I used to get easily unattached to people to protect myself. Trying really hard to stop that one. Finally trying to experience the whole spectrum of emotions.
7. I think parts of me are on the autism spectrum.
8. I have absolutely no ass. (or boobs now that I am looking at them.... well maybe little bumps)
9. I have a plethora of freckles which I absolutely hate. Always wanted the porcelain white Asian skin but the Irish side won.
10. And now the honest truth, this is really hard because I think I am so boring.
Now the ones I would like to pass this on to are with the same rules of telling 10 honest things about you.:
1. Utah Savage Love her. just wish I had more time.
2. The Peach Tart She will keep you cracking up and she's very honest.
3. The Drug Monkey So good.
4. That's Why I love her just wish I could have the time to read more.
5. Bern This Always got my laughing
6. Pretty But Shallow is funny and real.
7. Mommy with a Penis is great also.
Good night all.
Well Gotta go and get some sleep. 6 AM comes early.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Where has the time gone?

Wow, I'm back. Seems just like a few days ago I was on and giving you all the excuses of my last absence. And now here I go again.
Excuse #1 (actually the truth). I've just been so busy. The boys have been starting back to school which entailed massive amounts of shopping. The nanny's last day was Friday and I'm hunting for a new one.
Now that's over and done with.....let's discuss what's going on in my mind. Received an email from my attorney who finally got a settlement proposal. He's dropping it in the mail with his thoughts on it. Hmmmm, wonder what's in it and what he's going to charge me for his thoughts?
It brought up the fear that I've been letting hide for a while. The fear of "can I do this?". So today, I tackled it. I recognized the anxiety I was feeling, acknowledged it and accepted it. It's normal and healthy. Not letting myself go back to the "safety" of what I had. To me, never again. I just am going to go forward and accept things as they come. I may have some doubts sometimes but I am not going to let them drag me down to where I was before. It's only life's little speed bumps. I've gone over much bigger ones in the past and I've always made it over the humps. This is no different. Got my spine and I can do this.
Besides, the anxiety did help me get some really deep cleaning done.